Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Fear of failure...

Here are some paintings and pastel compositions I did for fun...
-PAK




















Monday, December 14, 2009

These are my amatuer attempts at art...

I must apologize for the poor quality of the pictures. I definitely don't have the proper lighting or anything, but I'll get better at it. Most of these are experiments with different mediums and techniques. I'm still trying to figure out my style and what I like best. Anyway...it's a start.

-PAK











































A beginning

As is typical with most things, I've fought against ever blogging. I never wanted a facebook or myspace, but of course I have both. I never wanted to own a cellphone...I now have a blackberry and it is constantly vibrating with new emails, updates, and information that I really never wanted...honest.

Well, I fought against fate for a long time. I didn't want to admit to myself that all I really want to do in life is be an artist and writer. So, I wrote in secret and would quietly say that yes, I write poems. It took me a long time to be able to boldly claim myself as a Poet and do so with actual confidence. Working with one of the best writers I've ever encountered helped to bolster that confidence in myself. Now I have 3 book sized compilations of poetry that I wrote (unpublished) and a collaborative effort that I'm quite proud to have been a part of. They are all sitting on my bookshelf collecting dust...because I'm lazy. And, maybe because I'm still fighting against the current of fate.

Now the newest admission to myself is the need to be a painter. I've always drawn and done doodles, rather than school work. Hence why I had to get my G.E.D. (plus a whole lot more BS).
So, I found a college that seems to fit my schedule and lifestyle. It's The Academy of Art University (I still think that seems redundant) in San Francisco. Fortunately they have one of the best, if not the absolute best online programs in the country...possibly the world. I enrolled in Illustration classes and I start February 1st, 2010.

And the reason for the blog becomes apparent:
I'm going to upload my work and write about how it feels to start this process and what sort of hurdles I'll no doubt be trying to overcome. The only reason I'm making it somewhat public is so I can get feedback from my peers. I would prefer constructive criticism, but if you just want to trash talk that's fine too.

I hope you enjoy and I hope I get better.
-PAK